DSDG

You get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do?

First. I will feel all the feelings. It’s what I do.

Denial. That’s not possible. There must be a mistake.

Skepticism. Of course there’s been a mistake. It’s probably a scam.

Disbelief. Definitely a mistake. Things like this don’t happen to me.

Guilt. Good things don’t happen to you because you don’t deserve them. Who do think you are? You should be grateful for what you already have. There are plenty of people who need this opportunity more than you…

Don’t worry, after that I will feel all the gratitude and all the joy and all of the excitement. I will feel ALL the feelings. But first, I must wade through the muck and mire of habitual mistrust of anything good. The path toward a Little Victory often requires a sturdy pair of boots.