Tag: Mental Health
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Lessons in Trust
Are you holding a grudge? About? I used to hold a monstrous grudge against my parents. They did so much damage, you see. But with each layer of healing from that damage, I find more acceptance. I recognize that my path is my path. The resilient and strong woman that I have become, the life…
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Big A and The Suze
What were your parents doing at your age? I left for Colorado at 18 years old, with a back pack, a couple hundred bucks and attitude to spare. Flipping the middle finger as I walked out the door. After a few years in Vail, suffering through a perfect storm of self-inflicted emotional turmoil and humiliation;…
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White Knuckling
I took the video posted below, in 2019. Emotionally exhausted, in the middle of one the worst depressive episodes I had, had in years. It took a full year from that day, for me to finally say, “Enough is enough” and schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist. I was then promptly diagnosed with Bipolar II…
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Sick of My Story
I’ve always thought that I can’t help anyone, until I am healed. I can’t write a story, until I have the right ending. I won’t have an impact, until I have arrived. But healing is not linear, and seemingly, never ends. If I don’t start writing the story, the only way it ends, is with…
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Easy to Love
I recently realized how much of my life I have spent trying to be, ‘Easy to Love’. Be small when you need to be, invisible even. Be funny when you need to, be a good time. Bite your tongue. Absorb and reflect other’s energy so they feel comfortable. Be relaxed, if that’s not possible, at…
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Anger Management
My oldest son once said to me, around 8 years old, “You know mom, the only thing that makes you really mad is when other people get mad.” It’s true. Not the emotion of anger, but the inability to control it, particularly in the presence of children, is one of my biggest triggers. We had…
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Better from Afar
I’m better from Afar. Or once in a while. Way better as a social media page. Better in text than on the phone. But better on the phone, than in person. 100% better one on one, than in a group. One on one, I can read your energy and mirror it, to make us both…
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What I’m getting wrong
My only goal in this life is to keep striving toward being my best self. Personal growth is kind of my jam. Meditation, journaling, morning rituals, allllll the books. Learning about attachment styles, positive parenting, breeding emotional intelligence and healthy communication. But I am far from perfect at these things, and that’s what this post…
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Be Yourself
“People always say how you should be yourself. Like yourself is this definite thing, like a toaster or something. Like you know what it is, even.” ~ Angela, My So Called Life Right on Angela. We’ve been hearing this one forever, right? Almost as long as “He bullies you because he LIKES you.” “Just be…
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